Blah..

I'm confused... That's all I know at present.. :-(

Chandana C. Shekar

Random again :)

One days goes 'yuck', and the next day (so far) goes so good :). Sometimes, even if you're not doing anything exciting in life, life seems amazing.. It feels, what I would call 'a pleasure'. They say two is a company.. Well, it can be any kinda company. When its good, its nice. When its better, its whoo. But when its the 'best', its 'WOW'. I've had some real nice company today. Even though I was doing the boring job of filling my application form for my PG entrance, I swear I didn't get bored. When somebody genuinely wants to help you, it feels so good. Even though the job is so damn simple, you just don't feel like saying a 'no' to the help offered. And if somebody goes out of their way to help you, all you can do, is stand back, and smile :-). I did. :-) And I really enjoyed that smile of mine. Not very often do you get to enjoy your smiles thoroughly in life. I haven't got many oppurtunities after my college days. Well, how, who, where??...well, all that's not necessary. Just that, I'm glad :-). Well, anyways, had a nice time today with my friend- One friend of mine, who never reads my blog :-). And so, is not gonna get bloated up by how much praise that 'idiot' gets here :-).I swear we didn't do anything special. Just hanging out, or maybe I should say, just doing some pending works. But still, I liked my day... till now..

It's getting time for my night shift to start. And work is not that great offlate. Maybe I should say that a colleague is not that okay offlate. So there are unnecessary complications popping up. Its like a classical example of - Two is a company and three is a crowd!! Well, problems exist at more than half the workplaces I guess. But I just wish, it wouldn't exist at mine.Anyways, gotta deal with the shit..

Hey one more thing. I watched few shows by 'Russell Peters' today. My friend had videos. I swear guys, he is amazing!! He is a 'comedy phenomenon'. The best comedian I have ever seen. You should surely watch him guys. He is so sarcastically hilarious, and he doesn't have a margin to his jokes. His jokes range from deaf people to races to accents to girlfriends to porn!! I swear that guy is too good. Do google out his videos on youtube and watch them. You'll find it really worth watching it. Don't be surprised if you are ROFL or LMAO :-)

I had to go to the temple today. And church too maybe. I'm gonna get allotted new postings from tomorrow and there is one 'dreaded unit' where I don't even wanna step into. I missed to the places of worship today. Just hoping god gets some mercy on me and doesn't put me into that hell.

Well, That's it for now I guess. The day's ending and the night's starting. For me, Work is starting. Something I have not been looking forward to. Especially after having spent a day, which I would smile thinking of.. And knowing that the night's gonna be bad.. Well, All good things come to an end maybe. I just want this 'glad' phase of life to last longer. I want more of days like today. If not more nice people in life, atleast I don't wanna lost the few nice people who already exist in my life :-)

OK guys, see ya tomorrow. Do write in.
Cheers

Loads of love,
Chandana C. Shekar :-)

Just like that...'People' maybe..

After writing for neha di's birthday, now that I'm here, I wanna put down something that's stirring in my mind since really long. Life is weird. The people who you come across in your life are weird. When you don't even think of giving a person a second look, that person tries to woo you. When you actually look at him/her, he pretends as though you don't exist at all. You love somebody else and your parents try to get you fixed up with somebody else. All that you know about your guy, is all about 'him'. And all that your parents know about the guy they look for you, is all about 'his parents'. Caste or financial status maybe the last thing on your list, but it shall sure be the headline on their 'requisites to meet' for the guy. Ufff!! Such a 'mind-shake', if I can call it that!!!

Why can't life be taken in a simple way? Why shud it be complicated so much?? As though there aren't enough things and bosses to complicate life, why do we start our own issues?? Well, I talk all this, and a friend of mine says that I myself complicate things in life!! Whoo!! Well, truly speaking, he's right. He is one guy who I know who makes life seem very very easy. It's not that he doesn't have problems in life. He sure does have his own share. But yeah, he knows how to tackle life. I swear its a pleasure to spend time with him. He does sure make you feel that your problems are not problems at all!! I dono If i put that sentence perfect. But I'm damn sure of one thing- he does make life seem easy.. Well, I dono If I've changed myself after being with him for quite sometime, but I sure hope I do. :)

Talking about such species, there are others too, 'Typical ones'. Someone who really changed your life big time!. Someone who changed your life- a wee bit maybe. Someone who loves you like crazy, for whom you mean the world and yet, you don't feel a thing and you can't help it either. MOST IMPORTANTLY, your 'ideal guy'. Your perfect 10/10. The person against whom you would never have any complaints. Somebody , of whom, everything and every damn thing seems right , right and just too right. Somebody, who you thought existed only in your dreams and your friends always told you there is no perfect 10/10.. Well, I disagree. I totally disagree. You can come across your perfect 10/10. I swear you can , if your lucky enough and take a proper look. Now all those who are reading this, please don't conclude that I'm saying from my own experience. I'm sure my brother is gonna call me after he reads this and ask me who this guy is.. lolz.. I'm just saying generally people!! I've got friends around you see.. So, 'general knowledge' I would say. ;-) If you really don't believe, then you may believe what you may!! ;) ( I learnt that line from somebody too ;)). But when you get to know that 'you' are not that guy's perfect 10/10, its such a heart wreck I swear. It's just then, that you actually wish that you had never come across him. But yeah, If it was the case with me, I wud surely rejoice that atleast the guy of my dreams exists!! In real world!! It's a different story that some other stupid bitch is gonna have him instead of me ;). Come on guys, I can atleast say 'bitch' to vent my anger and frustration out, can't I???!!??? Unlucky me and 'lucky pig' her!!! What about him, well , I dono :)

Well, here I go again, Life's weird. Off late I've been posted at the 'labour room' at hospital. Kids are born there day in and day out. Every time a kid is born and it's sleeping happily in the warmer there, only one thought crosses my mind- Wish life was always in this stage. No tensions, no hassles. Well, anyways, Life's a mixture at present. I enjoy few moments and few moments get me as low as possible. Or maybe I shud say that, few people keep me happy and few bitches get me low!! Same thing happened today too.One slut got me so royally irritated that hours have passed and I'm not yet out of it!! I should learn new 'gaalis' for her now. I'll google it maybe. I've never in my life felt that I should slap anybody, but her- oh yeah, sure anytime!Even on behalf of others too!! May god never and ever bless that female!! I wonder why is she even a female!!! She should have been born a lizard!! Chipkali saali !!!The worst part is that, she spoils my day and then asks me as to why I'm upset!! Bloody @%$&*@@#^$#...AArrrggghh!!! The more I think of her, the more I'm gonna get irritated. Fugget it. Well, that's something that's on my mind right now. It's very absurd and scattered, but ..well, something atleast :)

Next time for the rest

Love you all and hate 'her' sure.

Keep in touch people :)

Cheers

Loads and loads of Love,
Chandana C. Shekar

Happy birthday Neha di.. :)

hey guys...long time.. I apologise (if it's needed though) ;-) Life's gone weird. It's so beautiful at times that I just wish time freezes.. It's so utterly pathetic the remaining times that, yet again, I wish time should freeze!I can't take it anymore.. But whatever it is, Life's been a roller coaster ride off late. More than anything, life's gone too busy. Either with work or friends and family or even catching up on that lost sleep, I've weirdly got busy. Exams are fast approaching and all that I'm doing is filling forms.Not studying a bit!! Oops..Anyways, was away from my blog..sorry.. But yeah, I swear on anything-that I feel really really honoured when my friends ask me as to why I have stopped blogging!! In fact, when I used to blog, I never knew that so many people actually read my blog. But now when I have stopped updating it and people end up asking me, I feel-Whoo!! :)

Well anyways, Today is Neha di's birthday. Most of you must be knowing her- Neha Silam.. The girl who blogs big times, chats big time, lives life big time!! She a lawyer after all dude!! Poor Mandar. I wonder if she'll even let him open his mouth at home!!heehaw.Kidding di.. :) I've never written you a testimonial or anything, but let me tell you in short,that I really think very high of you. You are among the very few friends that I would never wanna lose. Maybe be in touch once in a while, if not too often. Thanks for all the support you gave me when I needed it ( I'm sure u remember it).Your a person with a 'heart of gold'(Richie rich ;-)), a girl who makes people turn heads but has a very strong head herself. I admire the way you take decisions. I love the way you face life with confidence and courage. Your sure the best companion and confidant anybody wud get. I swear di, your family and we guys are very happy to have you :). Well di, YOUR A SWEETHEART!!! How much ever i describe you, it'll just be like describing a very sweet person. So, I'd just say- You rock di.!! :) Have an amazing birthday and an awesome year ahead. Live life full-on.. :)



Loads of Love,
Chandana C. Shekar

After a real long time..

1 month and 13 days!!... Well, That's the longest I've been away from my blog I guess.. Reasons? Well, none in particular, and quite a few too!!! Contrasting huh? Oh yeah, True.. I didn't restrain myself from my blog for any reason. But yeah, a few circumstances made me stay away from it. At first, The last few days on my blog had very frequent entries. Even as frequent as two entries per day!! I was at home with a leg immobilized then na, so was passing time ;-). So took an off from the blog when I was capable of getting out and doing other stuff :) Then, one major thing happened!! I got addicted to facebook. Oh big time man!! Not networking , but the games!!! Farmville!! All thanks to Neha Silam!! Oh my, I was farming big time there. So whenever i was on the net, I was doing that. I do it now too, but at a lesser rate. Homosapiens after all you see ;-) , we get bored of everything after a while :). Fashion and Mafia wars, Cafe world and a few Mindjolt games popped up later ;). After a few days, my Internet modem conked off!!! So was dependent on my friend's Internet, and I never used to feel like writing anything there. Then had rural postings. So time just flew by :)


Now, I'm back. Why? Well, I don't really know.Maybe I missed writing. Maybe I missed my de-stresser. Or maybe came back coz I got to know people had appreciated and awarded me on their blogs. Or even just the plain fact that a couple of them asked me as to why I was away from it for so long!! Well, who really cares?!?!? I'm back and that's all that matters. Am I right or am I right guys? ;-)


Now what do I write? hmmm... lemme see.. Maybe I'll just leave my fingers on the keyboard and see what their dance leads to :)


Feels nice to be back. Hope to hear from you guys... :) Will go through all your blogs too. have a lot to catch up on.. :) . Chao, take care... Enjoy writing... See ya :)


Chandana C. Shekar

Guilty-Innocent

This is just a straight forward tag passed on to me by Nazish.Thanks Nazish.
So here I go.

The rules are thus…

RULE 1
You can only say Guilty or Innocent.
RULE 2
You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you and asks!
RULE 3
Copy and paste this into your notes , delete my answers, type in your answers and tag 20 of your friends to answer this.

Okies, so my answers--

Asked someone to marry you? Innocent

Ever kissed someone of the same sex? Innocent

Danced on a table in a bar? Innocent

Ever told a lie? Guilty

Had feelings for someone whom you can’t have back? Guilty

Kissed a picture? Innocent

Slept in until 5 PM? Guilty

Fallen asleep at work/school? Guilty

Held a snake? Innocent.

Been suspended from school? Innocent

Worked at a fast food restaurant? Innocent

Stolen from a store? Innocent

Been fired from a job? Innocent

Done something you regret? Guilty

Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? Guilty

Caught a snowflake on your tongue? Innocent

Kissed in the rain? Innocent

Sat on a roof top? Guilty

Kissed someone you shouldn’t? Innocent

Sang in the shower? Guilty.

Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? Innocent

Shaved your head? Guilty

Had a boxing membership? Innocent.

Made a girlfriend cry? Innocent.

Been in a band? Guilty

Shot a gun? Guilty

Donated Blood? Innocent

Eaten alligator meat? Innocent

Eaten cheesecake? Guilty

Still love someone you shouldn’t? Innocent

Have/had a tattoo? Innocent.

Liked someone, but will never tell who? Guilty

Been too honest? Guilty

Ruined a surprise? Innocent

Ate in a restaurant and got really bloated that you couldn’t walk afterwards? Guilty.

Erased someone in your friends list? Guilty

Dressed in a woman’s clothes (if you’re a guy) or man’s clothes (if you’re a girl)? Guilty.

Joined a pageant? Innocent

Been told that you’re handsome or beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said? Guilty

Had communication with your ex? Innocent

Got totally drunk on the night before exam? Innocent.

Got totally angry that you cried so hard? Guilty

That was easy and guilty-innocent ;)

Now to pass it on, I would pass it on to

Neha silam

Neha ansal

Neha hadkar

Swatantra

Pratap

Arun

Urvashi

Illuminator

Prerana

Girl next door

Cheers:)

Chandana C. Shekar

One more relaxed day.. Whooo!!! :-)

I kinda have this intense urge to write something since yesterday. I've been bragging people around me to tell me some topic that I can write something really nice on. But I don't know why people over-estimate my calibre. They suggest topics that will need a minimum write of a few pages!! I don't mean to write so much. I just want to write an article for my blog that's short and effective enough to create an impact (good or bad, is left to the reader) in the reader's mind. But looks like bad luck is on vacation somewhere around me. I haven't got a topic of interest yet!! The ones that are flashing up here and there in some corner of my mind are just not worth writing about.

Well anyways, looks like again I'll have to write some random stuff. Nothing great happened today. Yet, I feel it's something exciting, coz it's been a 'chit chat day' today. I spent the morning on the phone with my aunt and my cousin's wife until it was time to go to the hospital for my follow-up. Late morning passed by chit chatting with Mommy dearest :). No doubt I'm her best company when she is cooking :). Had a friend come down to visit me in the afternoon. I'm a patient now you see ;-). He got me a big dairy milk bar. Wow!! I'm haappiiee.. lolz. Had two more friends come down in the evening. So all I did today was chit chat, and somewhere in between, bits of gossip too ;). Was a nice day all in all .

But yeah, one thing I heard about was really irritating. Somebody in authority to give me leave at my hospital, has a doubt that I've not met with an accident and I'm just making it up!! Heights!! First of all, when I called that person to ask for leave, I wasn't even asked as to how I am doing now, or do I have fractures. But yeah, I was surely told to get the medical certificate or else I shall have to repeat these particular days of internship. But that person went and asked my co-interns whether I was really hurt or was I making it up. My friend says that that question was accompanied by a sarcastic smile. And I sure can imagine that!!! What the hell on earth man!! If I had to make it up, I would say vomiting or back pain or even dengue fever (that's everywhere nowadays) and would have taken the certificate for that. Why would I say that I can't walk!! Wonder what people think!! If the same thing happens to their kith and kin and they are not given leave, I wonder how this person would react. I would love to see that, any day, any time. Anyways, at the end of the day, who cares what such people think. All I need is my leave. And about such mean questions and comments that are passed, well, all we end up doing- is bitch about it :).

Okies. I better go do something. hmm...not watch movies for sure. Have been watching two per day since the time I'm at home :). I think I should study a bit. My table looks so clean!! By the way, my legs far better :). See you guys soon when I can find something to write on. Cheers :)

Chandana C. Shekar

F-M-L ! ! !

I, for the last few hours thought things were being mean to me for no fault of mine. But as they say, 'always look at the brighter side'. Things could have gone worse. There are things that go a lot more worse with a lot of people. Sometimes, your heart goes to them sure when you listen to their stories. But quite a few times, when things are not so grave, and just bad enough to make your jaw open up in awe, it might make you laugh, but can be really embarrassing to the person who goes through it. You may end up laughing at their plight, but had you been in their place, you would've had a pain in your ass too!!Need examples? How are these?

"Today when I was talking to my boyfriend over lunch about how hectic my work is and how stressed out I am, coz of my job, he took out his phone and said his boss is texting and it is important. But I could see the reflection of the game of tetris reflecting onto his glasses from the phone!!"

"I saw a kid crying and stopped and asked him as to what happened. All I got, was a kick in my groin"

"Today I discovered that a $40 phone cover does not protect a $500 phone when a 5 year old throws it down from a 4th floor balcony"

"Today I received a text message from my sister saying, 'Good that technologies in condoms have improved so much this day, that mistakes like you don't happen anymore'.Today's my birthday"

One thing that is common with all of these instances, is that, all these lines are followed by, 'f my life!". Wondering where I heard these? Well, I read them . At http://www.fmylife.com/. No prizes for guessing what 'f' stands for!! Check out the site for more. Maybe it'll make you feel better when you feel that your life sucks. Maybe a stress buster. Or maybe a simple time pass!! I feel, it's worth a check, once at least :)

Chandana C. Shekar

A relaxed day at home

Had a relaxed day. Friends came over to visit. Watched two movies. Went to the hospital for follow-up. My knee dressing has been removed and the wounds' better. Got haemarthrosis too, but swelling has reduced than day before yesterday. Got my leave at my hospital extended for 3 more days. Now need to get a medical certificate. Formalities man!!!

I want to write about some advice that I was given by someone regarding my accident. She said , "The next time this happens, don't shout at the person who hit your vehicle. Stay quiet, cry if you want to, show that your hurt, and tell him that he is harassing you because you're a girl and you shall take this matter to the Women's commission". What the hell ya!! Why are you getting women's commission here? And what does 'cry if you want to' mean? I wonder!! No comments anyways!!! You guys can ponder over this with your own views. I found it weird though! Heights of feminism maybe..

Well, nothing else with the day. Nothing exciting to talk about. Maybe I'll watch one more movie and then hit the bed :). Thanks everybody for all the wishes :). Cheers :)

Chandana C. Shekar

Sometimes, you pay for somebody else's mistake

Met with an accident. Some *$*#@ bugger who didn't know how to drive his car was the cause for it. :( If I had just passed 3 houses, I would have reached home and would've been as safe as a puppy in its kennel. But unfortunately, that guy had to turn his car sharply to the right without an indicator 3 houses away from my house and I had to fall. Hurt my leg badly. Fortunately, just lacerations and abrasions, and no fractures or displacements. My knee is dressed royally and I'm not able to flex my knee. So, I'm not able to walk properly, just limping around in the house. I just hope the wounds heal soon and I won't have to undergo delayed primary suturing or something of that sort. Yet, I thank myself for being slow at that point of time. The impact would've been more if I was driving fast maybe.

It was just a day that I had joined the gym and I was a bit too enthu about it. And now, I won't be able to go for a few days :( . Just wishing if I hadn't gone to the gym yesterday. My membership would've started later itself. Now that my membership has started, I feel so bad that the money is going waste there. And yeah, I 'wanted' to go work out :( . Missing going there big time :(

My vehicle is not moving at all. Wonder what's with it. My parents are now bent on me buyin a car. But I prefer the scooter. The worst thing is that, my parents are telling me that I'm not supposed to ride my vehicle atleast for a week coz my foot needs rest. Oh god! I hate travelling by auto or waiting for my parents to pick me up. :(

I got leave for two days from hospital. But I wonder If I'll be able to walk around properly when I get back on friday, coz paedo postings has a lot of walking around to do. I wonder If I'll even get back on friday. Have a follow-up at the ortho on thurday evening. Let's see..Well, had plans of taking leave and going to Bangalore next week. But now, my leaves are inevitably meant for sitting at home :(

All of this, just for somebody else's 'mistake' as what that bugger calls it. I swear, I royally curse that ^%&&&$#* who was driving the car. For no mistake of mine, I am to suffer. That guy must be roaming around somewhere doing nothing useful in life this moment, when I'm sitting here at home and blogging coz I'm getting bugged!!

I always knew what suffering meant. I know that my wounds are noting compared to what I see at the hospital. But now I know for sure, what people feel when you dress up their leg and ask them not to move it for days together. Well, my heart's with them sure.

Well, I want to get back to being a 'doctor', from being a 'patient'. ASAP!!

Chandana C. Shekar

One week at Immunisation

They say na, when you truly ask for something, you do get it sure.. Well, I asked for a week off from paedo postings and I got it sure :) I always cribbed about the Paedo postings in my college and guess what, I got one whole week off!! Asking why? Well, I was posted at immunisation for a week!! Yippee!! :)

One week of just you and the nurse at the immusation department, with no P.G. or staff that you have to keep reporting things to (trust me, that feels really good) , hardly any work on days other than monday and thursday, no collecting reports and best of all, no taking samples to the laband no roaming around for references :). WOW!! Plus, you have flexible timings. No running to the hospital before 9 am. To top it all, I had one half day per se and a sunday holiday!Whoo, my first sunday holiday in the whole 51/2 months of internship!!! College fest too was at the same time, so I was not there in the hospital in the afternoons :) (coz our college fest events start in the afternoon). Had no problem asking for permission and crap, and no headache of running back for night duty after the events get over late evening.

And yeah, not to forget, I missed two OPDs!!! Missing even one single first unit paedo OPD feels like you've missed hell!!No exaggeration here for sure. Felt like I'm a doctor for a week and not an ayah(In our hospital paedo, interns are just doing ayah's work of taking samples to labs, taking the patient along for all the referenxes and x-rays and scans and blah blah blah). We get to sit in 'The doctor's chair', and not in the one next to it. You have your colleagues coming over to chit chat when they are free and you too are (Immunisation is free on all days except mondays and thursdays), and nobody will question you anything about that. I swear, I was as happy and and as relaxed as I could be. :)

Well, one week gone by, I never realised how swiftly it passed by. Had a real nice posting here. Will have to report back to paedo first unit from tomorrow. That's not something I'm looking forward to. But, as they say, all good things come to end. So did immunisation postings. I'm glad that I got one week atleast. I have got the highest number of days at immunisation amongst my colleagues and all of them are invariably jealous of me. That just gets an impish smile on my face ;-). So, back to paedo emergency ward tomorrow, and hoping this fortnight passes soon :)

Chandana C. Shekar

Won poetry at my college fest :)

My first reaction when I saw the topic for the poetry competition at my college fest was, 'WTF'!!! Asking me why? Well, it was such a bakwaas topic. It was 'Light of life'. So first think what can be the light of your life, and then jumble words to write on it. All this in less than an hour, because another competition was about to start after an hour. Moreover, the fact that I hadn't written since months together, made me go 'aarrghh'.. But yet, as they say- alls well that ends well, I thought, I wrote and I was happy about what I wrote. And to top it all, I won too. :) Though I wrote poetry since the past 2 years, this was the first time I took part in any competition per se. And I won. I'm really glad about it. And this happenening to be my last fest at my college , makes it feel more special. I'm putting up my poem here. Kindly have a read and let me know what you think. Comments and critique most welcome. Will really be glad. Thanks in advance :)

LIGHT OF LIFE

I wished he was here, to give me company,
Until the sky fell down, upon him and me.
But the news of his demise, made me go so sore,
Even before he knew, he'd have a kid to adore.

I yearned so much, to him, say 'I love you',
But fate didn't let me, even a last aideu.
He was my soul sure, he was my world,
Everything I now saw, looked so unpurled.

When all about life, was black with gloom,
And all I felt, was pending doom,
When my bones were racked with grim despair,
And every breath, was just a gasp of air..

When I could only sigh, and only grope,
All I could give myself, was a chance of hope.
I hoped my cloud, would have a silver lining,
Just enough to make this world, a place worth living.

When days to weeks, weeks to months, in me, you turned,
Within me, feelings and emotions, just churned and churned.
You finally entered the world, and wasn't a suprise,
But yet my darling, it took me time, to realise.

You're the greatest gift, god could ever bestow,
The most exquisite joy, than I would ever know.
You're just that's needed, to take away, all my strife,
Just know that my baby, you're truly, The Light of my Life.

Chandana C. Shekar

p.s.- My 50th post on the blog :)

The rangoli we did at our college fest

That's the rangoli that my friend and I did at the competition at my college fest. We didn't win anything. Well, no comments about that. But we are really glad that a lotta people liked it and took pictures. :) We had fun doing it anyways :) For those who need an explaination, the picture has a female foetus (thats why the caption says 'her'), who is dreaming to fly high, but is being killed and the dream is being plucked off in the bud itself. We just meant to say, stop female foeticide. :)


Chandana C. Shekar

Two Nehas, Two Tags :-)

What a co-incidence. Just exactly when I'm not having anything interesting in life to write about, I get two tags by two friends. And co-incidently again, both of them are called "Neha"!! :)

So here I go, NEHA HADKAR has tagged me for "The ABC tag". It goes like this:

1)Link the person who tagged you.

2) Post the rules on your blog.

3) Share the ABCs of you.

4) Tag 3 people at the end of your post by linking to them.

5) Let the 3 people know of the tag by leaving them comments.

6) Do not tag the original ‘tagger’.

Here I go,

A – Available/Single? - Single, but not available. Reasons best known to me ;-)

B – Best friend? - Vivek. Very very close competition to him would be a lot more friends

C – Cake or Pie? - Cake for sure

D – Drink of choice? - COFFEE, anytime anyday!!!

E – Essential item you use every day? - My cell phone for sure

F – Favorite colour? - Black, Oh I love that colour

G – Gummy Bears Or Worms? - Gummy bears

H – Hometown? - Namma Mysooru :) Love this place

I – Indulgence? - Coffee, music, writing, sleeping.

J – January or February? - February for sure :)

K – Kids & their names? - Call me after 10 years. or maybe 15. I'll let u know then :)

L – Life is incomplete without? - Loved ones

M – Marriage date? - I don't even know the year yet!!

N – Number of siblings? - One

O – Oranges or Apples? - Apples

P – Phobias/Fears? - Snakes

Q – Quote for today? - Never say 'no' when a loved one asks for time, be it at any hour of the day.

R – Reason to smile? - Nothing at the moment. Getting bugged sitting alone at home.

S – Season? - Winter. It feels so good to cuddle into a cozy corner.

T – Tag 3 People? - Nazish , Neha Silam , Dhanashree

U – Unknown fact about me? - Let it be so na. Why do u wanna know? Keep track of the things u already know. thats more than enuf :)

V – Vegetable you don't like? - All those gourds..bitter gourd and the like...yuck...

W – Worst habit? - Extremely lazy at times.

X – X-rays you've had? When I had a fracture left last toe when I was in class 6.

Y – Your favorite food? - Biryani, and Pani puri

Z – Zodiac sign? - Aries!!! I'm a typical text book description of an aries.

Thanks for readin. Enjoyed writing it. Put my grey
cells to work. Now, the people whom I've tagged,
I'm looking forward to read yours :)

The other tag is by NEHA SILAM. I'd call it the "C" tag. Wanna know why? Read on.

Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real .... nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question. Then you need to tag 4 people..

So, here I go again :)

1.What is your name: Chandana

2. A four Letter Word: Cold

3. A boy's Name: Chandan

4. A girl's Name: Chethana

5. An occupation: Carpenter

6. A colour: Crimson

7. Something you wear: Clothes

8. A food: Cake

9. Something found in the bathroom: Clothes-hanger

10. A place: Canada

11. A reason for being late: Checking!!!Caught by Traffic police for license checking ;)

12. Something you shout: Chuck it ya!!

13. A movie title: Casanova

14. Something you drink: Coffee!!

15. A musical group: Choir of Helen

16. An animal: Cat

17. A street name:Commercial street

18. A type of car: Chevrolet

19. Something scary: Canines maybe.lolz
20. Ice cream flavour: Chocolate

Now I tag, Neha Hadkar, Pratap, Urvashi and Arun for this :)

Chandana C. Shekar

Aarrgghh !!

For the first time in my internship, I'm regretting being on leave :( Yeah, you heard it right, It might sound insane, but yeah, its true. I must have said "What the hell", quite a few times now. No intern would repent being on leave. Even I wouldn't in other circumstances. We jump and grab the leaves we can get. But now, there are three things that are making me regret. One- I'm sick :-(. Two- It's happening during Ortho postings of the lot!! Three- I'm royally bored!!! Ortho postings has hardly any work to be done. Coming home by 11.30 am on free days feels nothing else but 'bliss'. And I'm missing out on that.. Wish I had fallen ill during some other postings when I had loads of work to do :( I would have slept with peace..

This fever is so sickening. It's changed from intermittent to continous now. I'm so royally bored sleeping all the time. The only other thing that's happening is that music is playing. And my 'younger' sister keeps advising me to stop it coz she thinks that it'll give me a headache!! My younger sister reigning over me? yeah, I know, power does a lot to people. Mom's not in town.So, my sister thinks she is responsible to look after my health now. Poor girl, she ends up asking me if I want anything umpteen times a day. Mom will be back tomorrow. I'm glad. It's always so nice to have Mom around.

Gave my blood for repeat investigations. Waiting for the reports. Have to call the physician after that. I realise, there are a few advantages being a doctor. Or even a doctors' kid. No need to worry about hospital hours, even for the slightest problems. Things get done anytime. :-) I wouldn't have consulted a physician for this fever. Thought it's viral. But it's been a week and sumptoms aren't reducing.So, my parents need 'expert' opinion for that. lolz. See, when your kith and kin fall sick, you forget that you are a doctor too :-).

My friends are giving me varied diagnosis every time they call me. And they seem to be very sure of it. It's fun when they say, "This disease doesn't usually present like this, but it can you know?"..Yeah, yeah, I know :). See, this is what happens when you know half and half :). Anyways, best one was when somebody said 'swine flu'.. hehehe... How could he say that? But poor guy, i appreciate his concern :)

One of my best friend's wedding got finalised. I'm so happy for her. The wedding's after a year. I just wish it was somewhere at a more nearby date. I'm sure I'll be a part of it. So wondering if it could happen somewhere now. Atleast would have had some excitement in life. lolz :) . I guess it'll be the first wedding among my 'best' friends. So, pretty excited about it. :)

I seem to have fallen in love with the song 'chor bazaari' from the movie 'Love aaj kal'. Been hearing it over and over again. Love the beats in the song somehow. My sis says that I need to change the song. I've played it so many times that she has the lyrics by-heart itseems.lolz. I won't change. Getting some sadistic pleasure by irritating her ;-) .

Ok, I'm hungry now. Need to go eat something. Feels so good scribbling my mind out. I feel less 'aarrgghh'. I hope you guys don't feel 'aarrgghh' reading it :) . If you do, don't write to me.. Write to..,.maybe...hmmm... My sister... lolz ;-)

Take care

Chandana C. Shekar

Ink and paper...

I write. People write. They love to write. They might write simple or complex, but they write. But what makes them put imaginations and thoughts into words? How do pictures come down onto paper from some nook of the mind? How do people get time for all this amidst their busy schedule? Maybe that's what you call, 'Inspiration'.

For a few, Inspiration is the smile got on their face while , after and forever after writing. For a few, it might be the smile got on somebody else's face. For a few, it might be something they do to get their part of fame. For others, it might be just to make their loved ones proud of them. It might be just the gush of thoughts in your mind that won't give you peace until you put it on paper. Or it might just be a simple time pass that you wanna shoo away time with. It might be the habit you inculcated in yourself since school days when you wrote essays. It might as well be something you've been trying to do to improve your vocabulary, to keep up pace with the world. It can even be the task your doing because somebody said you couldn't do it. It might even be something your doing, just to impress your special someone. You might write , to get rid of your loneliness. Or maybe just because it makes you feel serene. You might write when the night's silent and dark, and you wanna do something nice. Or maybe when your in the market and something interesting or weird caught your attention. You might blog just because the world blogs and you need one for yourself to flaunt about. You might write poetry because you'r tired of studying your syllabus and you want to be more creative for now. Maybe that you have great authors as your idols and you wanna be like them someday. Or maybe it's just a stress buster. Or it may just plain be, coz you love doing it :)

Somebody asked me what inspires me to write. I really don't know the exact answer for that. I don't know why I started writing. I don't even remember when i started 'writing' per-se. I've been doing it, in bits and pieces though, since really long. I think old habits die hard :) But all I know , is that I get a smile on my face when I write. I look forward for appreciation too. But yeah, the smile stays for a long time. Feel content.. Relaxed.. Glad..

A lot of my friends write. And a few of them, have become my friends for the reason that we share a common thing. We write. We don't aim to be high profile authors. We don't write amazing poetry or novels which get published. We just scribble a few poems, a few articles, maybe a few short stories or bedtime stories for children. But yeah, we enjoy doing that. And we are proud of ourselves for that. I bet all my friends would agree to that.

It's really a nice thing to play with words. Words are always better to play with than numbers. Words have more life than numbers. In case you guys want proof, just try playing crossword instead of sudoku. If you don't find it interesting, keep doing it for a few more days. Finally, you will like it. Then just pick up a pen and paper. Whenever something strikes your mind, just scribble it on paper. Before you realise, your thoughts would have turned into poetry :). Somebody had told me this latter part. And I feel its genuine.

There's a separate world around each person. There are so many people around each person. So there are so many worlds overlapping around each person. You just have to take a good enough look..And then, you'll find what I call my blog, 'The World Around Me"...

p.s.- Dedicated to all my friends and others who do one amazing thing-- Write.. :) Keep it going guys :)

Cheers :)

Chandana C. Shekar

What does my birthday say about me?!?!?!?

I took this so called 'Quiz' on orkut, which said "What does your birthday say about you?". It was supposed to assess my personality based on my birthday. I don't believe much in such things, but yeah, curiosity sometimes makes you try such stuff. This is what I found as 'result' after answering to a couple of questions. Well, let's just see what I think about it. And hey, all you people who know me well, please do leave your views about how well these traits suit me. Just inquisitive (and jobless at the moment) you see ;-)

Attractive personality,sexy. - I should take people's opinion about it.

Affectionate.- That I am :)

Shy and reserved.- Not really. I am, only at times. It all depends on the people and circumstances.

Secretive.- Depends again.

Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic.- Oh yeah, dead sure about that :)

Loves peace and serenity.- Any day , any time :)

Sensitive to others.- Yup. But if u piss me off, I really don't care what happens in your life.

Loves to serve others.- I'm a Doctor after all you see :)

Easily angered.- Yes, yes, Oh yes!!

Trustworthy.- Very much. I flaunt it ;-)

Appreciative and returns kindness.- I do, I do.

Observant and assesses others.- I would say, not really.

Revengeful.- I don't think so. But I can never think of helping people who have ticked me off.

Loves to dream and fantasize.- Yup, very much. I dream a lot.

Loves traveling.- Yes, i enoy journerys.

Loves attention.- Everybody does :) But I become conscious at times. Should change that.In the process of doing that.

Hasty decisions in choosing partners.- Really?? Should wait and watch.

Loves home decors.- Yeah.

Musically talented.- Oh yeah. I'm a trained Carnatic Classical Singer. I play the Keyboard big time. Can manage to play the Violin. So yeah, true :)

Loves special things.- Obviously :) Everybody will :)

Moody.- This is one word that would best describe me I guess. Many of my friends say so :)

Chandana C. Shekar

Done with Surgery-VI

"The End" of Surgery postings..

Over and out with 49 days of 'Surgery-VI'. Got so used to saying that word 'Surgery-VI', that it became similar to the 'Hi' that I used to tell my friends. Every time I went to get or submit the O.T. list, to collecting reports, to calling the wards, to references, to telling umpteen people as to where I belong,...well, it was always 'Surgery-VI'. The fact that it was my first 'major' postings made me go more accustomed to it. All my previous postings were only for 15 days each, and I hardly had any work to do. By the time I would realise that I belong somewhere, postings would get over and I would belong somewhere else. But surgery-VI, Oh it gave me so much work that for the starting few days, I felt that I'm being royally, extremely, unreasonably overworked!!!. Lolz.. I don't blame the people who I worked with, no ways!! There was so much work indeed!

Well, had a nice experience in a few ways and I wanted to flee away from the unit sometimes too.. Had quite a few nice people to work with. Few of them were 'fun' too. I'll always remember them. Had 2 fights too with somebody not-so-nice. lolz. :) But hey, I won- both times. And that's all that matters ;-) I cribbed about the workload quite a few times, but never had any bad experiences that would bring tears in my eyes. I'm just so glad that the Saturday OPD days are gone, atleast for the time being. It used to feel so awkward to work 'busy' on Saturdays and Sundays!! Got to learn quite a bit too. All thanks to-well, those who taught me ;-)

Personal front too went well in the period. No regrets about anything. The number of games in my phone increased, chit-chat sessions with my co-intern increased, number of coffee day visits increased..Only thing that almost came to a nil, was my studies. Its in dire need to be started again!!

Well, all in all, I'm content and happy that I'm done with 'Surgery VI'. But somewhere in some nook of my mind, I'll miss it too. No specific reasons for it. And I don't wanna decipher it too :) Glad just the way it is :)

Chandana C. Shekar

J-L-T

For some reason, I'm in love with the picture I've posted in my previous post. No idea as to why. Life seems relaxed at the moment. Had a 'real' nice time at Shruthi's wedding.I had a few problems to deal with. But nevertheless,everything got sorted out. But yeah, all through the while, I missed a friend. My best friend. When all friends were present at the wedding, this guy was missing. And the fact that he was my best friend made me miss him more. Anyways, maybe I need to get used to it. He lives far from here now, and sure won't be able to make it for the forthcoming friends' weddings too. But still, few friends can't be replaced I guess. I just don't get the comfort level that he and I shared, with anybody else..Well, maybe this is why they say, 'All happy things come to an end'. :-(

I'm glad I got a 3 day break from the hospital :) Missed two continous OPDs. All thanks to Shruthi's wedding :)

Mysore's weather is back to its normal pace. Just the way I love it. Cool, cold, drizzling, raining... Just the way I always loved Mysore. :) But everybody's so busy with their lives , that my friends and I don't get to hang out much liked we used to do earlier.. Wish to go to Chamundi Hill for a drive someday now.. :)

Watched a movie "The other end of the line". Oh, I loved it absolutely. Two completely different people and one cute sweet love story.That's how I always love stories. Any girl who is romantic would love to live that story. I would...Any day!!

Haven't got to talk to my brother for a while now. That's pretty unusual with me. Well, maybe I'll call him today.

Well, a lot more stuff happening in life. But as we always say, its 'nothing significant'. So, I'll call it a night here.

Take care people. Cheers :)

Chandana C. Shekar

Wedding Bells everywhere

Looks like Wedding bells are ringing everywhere. One of my friend is getting married this weekend and celebrations are full-on. Its a marwari wedding and so, you can imagine the pomp and grandeur that's into the wedding. Its somewhat what you ideally call, 'The Big Fat Indian Wedding'. Yesterday was the mehendi function and I was no exception. I got my mehendi done too :) . Had fun yesterday. Everybody had fun. It's really good to have a wedding in the family. Its far better than any other festival. It gives people so much joy. An occasion for family and friends, to rejoice, to feel glad, to sing, to dance, to bless,to make merry, to say 'forever and ever'.. Wow!! I loved it yesterday. And I'm sure I'm gonna love the rest of the wedding too :) Going to Bangalore tomorrow for her reception party. Looking forward to the next three days. I've got leave from the hospital too :)

Three of my friends got engaged this month. Three more have their match-making going on on serious terms. And the rest, well, atleast few are thinking about it. I'm happy for all of them. I'm glad their 'happily ever after' is starting. But somewhere, it feels all different to know that, the girls and guys I hung out with, till recently, are already responsible enough to start a family!! Wow!! I too will get my number, one fine day( a long way to go though). Until then, I'll enjoy being the bridesmaid :) I'm loving it :)

Chandana C. Shekar

Just when I think I'm done...

Saturday is back again!! Unfortunately!! :( Yeah, you didn't hear me wrong..I said 'Unfortunately' itself. Almost every sane human being looks forward to 'weekends'. For youth like us, Saturdays are always more fun than Sundays. But for me and a few more working with me, well, we just wish Saturdays cease forever..

It feels like just yesterday, that we had Saturday and our OPD and admission day and night shift and all that crap. And Saturday is here again :( How soon did the week pass by ? :(

Physiology says , your body and mind needs adequate rest.Being doctors, we all have studied it properly in our very first year of medical school. We know the disadvantages of not getting enough rest. Then why on earth are we doctors ourselves expected to work like donkeys?!?! We aren't some machines right? Why are we put on 36 hour shift and 70 hour shift and all that? Forget me, one of my friend took up MS general surgery in a government college recently. And poor fellow, he is getting to sleep only for an hour everyday for the past five days!! I mean, won't our efficiency decrease if we work like this?How much can you force your body and mind to work. When your drowsy and your mind is not analysing the history and findings and investigation reports of a patient to come to a diagnosis, forget the treatment part, whose at loss? What if you make a blunder in the treatment?At the end of the day, patients do get affected because of this right?But the world's very diplomatic. Everybody is of the opinion that, 'your a doctor. The noble profession. You should be able to handle all this'. What crap!! I wonder why shifts are so unreasonable. But I know for a fact that, nothing can be changed.

Intake of PGs and staff can be increased and work load will reduce. MBBS graduates are staying at home without PG seats and very low paid duty doctor jobs. But no. No college admits more PGs. I wonder why.When you can admit 150 students for an MBBS course, and you know that just an MBBS degree without an MS or MD leaves you nowhere, why is that you hardly have 50 seats for MD and MS? What are the others supposed to do? Stick to a 10,000 job all through life? Amazing logic ya!! Whatever it is, the hierarchy in this field is horrible. 'Rules' here, means, just what the seniors say. That's it. They are the rule makers and breakers and everything.

I'm not feeling well today. It looks like its gonna continue for tomorrow too. And tomorrow is supposed to be our busy day. How do I work when I myself am not feeling well? But yeah, I have to and I have previously worked while ill too. According to me, almost every intern and pg would have. Nobody in the hospital bothers about it. If at all I go and ask for leave, I won't get it because tomorrow is duty day and moreover, even if i get it, my leave for shruthi's wedding will get cancelled. Heights!!

My friends who I used to hang out with all these years have now shifted to Bangalore and elsewhere because most of my friends are engineers and are working in Metros. They come to Mysore only on weekends and they laugh at me when I say I'm at work!! Wow!! Amazing na? Life is screwed up if your weekends are screwed up yaar.

Anyways, I'm in this department for two more weekends. I'm on leave next weekend and that leaves me with only one Saturday duty and that's tomorrow. Hope things go easy tomorrow and hope my leave for the next weekend doesn't get cancelled. Want to get done with this..ASAP

Chandana C. Shekar

Friends :)

Just think. Would you want a friend to be with you in these instances??--

• When you went to school those days by auto-rickshaw or bus.


• When sombody bullied you at school and you wanted someone to slap that person back.


• When you wanted to share the paratha your mom made and you were proud of.


• When you wanted to tell someone that you got your first crush!


• When you wanted to share that something wrong happened- be it silly or horrible.


• When you drove to college, the very first day.


• When you were sitting in the last bench during class, and wanted to play tic-tac-toe.


• When you wanted to sms somebody when the lecture was boring.


• When you wanted to decide what to wear for your first date.


• When you wanted a solution for you attendance shortage.


• When you ran out of cash, and needed some urgently.


• When you bunked classes and went to canteen or movie or even, 'sight-seeing'!


• When.... well, maybe almost every other moment in life..

Haven't you needed a friend all this while? Well, I have. And I'm sure you have to. I went out with my friends today evening after quite a few days. And I was so glad I did.I enjoy every single time I'm with them. Everybody does.

"Friends"... That word means a whole lot on earth. Each friend is like a new world. A world that's not open until you meet him/her. But yet, you feel that world is very familiar to you. A friend is someone who knows you through and through. Someone who knows the song of your life, and will prompt you when you lose track. A friend is someone who'll be there for you, when he'd rather be anywhere else. A friend is not someone who cries when you get hurt, but someone who tries to make sure that you don't get hurt. A friend is someone who trusts in you, even when you don't. A friend is someone whom you'll love your evening walks with. A friend is someone whose your all-time company to party with. A friend is someone who'd stand by you when the whole world laughs at you, and yet, laugh at your silliest of silly jokes. A friend is someone who would be your dairy, to keep your secrets actually as secrets. A friend is a philosopher and guide. Someone who might not know whats right for him/her, but for sure knows whats wrong for you. Someone whose not family, yet means family. Someone who'd be proud to know you, and flaunt it too. Someone for whom, your spouse would instantly become jiju or bhabhi. Someone who you might talk to after ages, and yet feel so comfortable. Someone, who I feel, I would write on and on about.. They mean a lot more than what I can write here. Infact they mean a whole new thing every other day!! I'm glad God created friends. Who said we make friends? Friends are born to be :) Infact, Friendship exists in every relationship, but in a very subtle way.

I'm glad I have a few really really good friends whose friendship I would cherish forever and ever. Thanks for being there guys. You make life fun :) Heege koole maadana ;)

Friends may not mean your life, but they definitely make life worth living :)

p.s.: I'd like to dedicate this to my best friends- Ashi, Nammu, Appu, Vivek, Chandu, Rakshi, Shru, Dhanni, few people from my college and a few more. Apologies appealed for the names not mentioned. It goes to every single friend of mine, whose made my life blessed :) Love you guys :)

Chandana C. Shekar

My first blog-tag

Have been tagged by Nazish Rehman @ http://nazishrahman.blogspot.com/2009/06/truly-me-100-truths.html. Thanks dude :) Well, will try to answer them. Here it goes.

1. Last drink: Coffee
2. Last phone call : To my friend
3. Last text message: To another friend
4. Last song you listened to: Don't remember
5. Last time you cried: A fortnight ago maybe

Have you ever?...
6. Dated someone twice: No
7.Been cheated on?: No
8. Kissed someone & regretted it?: No
9. Lost someone special?: No
10. Been depressed?: Not really
11. Been drunk and threw up?: Naaa

Four Favourite Colors...
12. Black
13. Red
14. Lavender
15. White..

First times....
16. Made new friends: In kindergarten obviously
17. Fallen out of love: No
18.Laughed until you cried: Yes……lot of times. Don't remember the first time.
19. Met someone who changed you: Kind of yes, but changed a few things, not completely.
20. Found out who your true friends were?: Once I joined medical college!!!
21. Found out someone was talking about you: First year of medicine!!

Have You..
22. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: Nope!!
23. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: All of them!!
24. How many kids do you want to have: That's a long long way to go yet . why think about it now? lolz
25. Do you have any pets: No
26. Do you want to change your name: Never
27. What did you do for your last birthday: Was working at the casualty!!! lolz. went out with friends and later with family in the evening.
28.What time did you wake up today: suprisingly, 7 am .
29. What were you doing at midnight last night: Writing a poem
30. Name something you CANNOT wait for: people who make you wait for them
31. Last time you saw your father: An hour ago
32. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: I wish i could go back to my past and rectify all my mistakes.
33.Most Visited wed web page: gmail.com

What's Your...
34. Name: Chandana Shekar
35. Nicknames: Mini, and loads of others.
36. Zodiac sign: Aries
37. Male or female or transgender: female
38. Elementary: Ideal jawa rotary school, Mysore
39. School: Marimallappa's High school, Mysore
40. Colleges: Sadvidya PU college and JSS Medical College, Mysore
41.Hair color: Black
42. Long or short: adequate enough :)
43. Height: 5 feet 5 inches
44. Do you have a crush on someone?: Oh yeah, sure :)
45. Ever been in love?: I wonder!!!
46. Piercings?: ear
47. Tattoos?: no
48. Righty or lefty: Righty
49. First surgery: The one I did was a caesarian section ( assisted my mom). The one I got done was a fracture open reduction when I was in class 6!!!
50. First piercing: When i was a kid
51. First best friend: Arpitha and Dhanya, in kindergarten
52. First sport you loved: Ring-a-ring-a roses I guess. lolz. 'First one' you see :)
53. First pet: I never had a pet
54. First vacation: Can't remember
55. First concert:In class 2 ( other than the school ones)
56. First crush: A senior at High school

Right Now...
57. Eating: No
58. Drinking: No
59. I'm about to: Have my dinner
60. Listening to: The fan making some sound
61. Waiting for: Mom to get back home from work

Your Future...
62. Want kids?: Ofcourse ya
63. Want to get married?: Oh yeah, That goes without saying!
64. Careers in mind?: Mind's a better place for it be, than on paper :)

Which is better with the opposite sex...??
65. Lips or eyes: Eyes
66. Hugs or kisses: I'd say both!!
67. Shorter or taller: Taller sure
68. Older or Younger:Older maybe.
69. Romantic or spontaneous: Both ofcourse…..
70. Nice stomach or nice arms: Arms yeah.Does that need to be asked?!?!?
71. Sensitive or loud: Neither. I don't like sensitive guys, but neither should they be too loud.
72. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship
73. Trouble maker or hesitant: Neither again

Have you ever...??
73. Kissed a stranger: Naa
74. Lost glasses/contacts: I don't use them
75. Sex on first Date: Naaa
76. Broken someone's heart: Yes
77. Had your own heart broken: Not really
78. Been arrested: Naa
79. Turned someone down: Yes. Couldn't help it
80. Cried when someone died: Yes
81. Liked a friend that is a boy?: No

DO YOU BELIEVE IN...
82. Yourself: Most of the times
83. Miracles: Oh Yes
84. God: yes
85. Love at first sight: No idea
86. Heaven: No idea
87. Santa Claus: I used to.
88. Kiss on the first date?: Naa
89. Angels: Yes….. I wish I could have one
90. Devils: Definitely…thr r many

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY...
91. Is there one person you want to be with right now?:Yes
92. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? Naa
93. Wanted to kill someone ever?: Naa
94. Among you blog mates, whom would you like to kiss?: None
95. Committed a blunder and regretted later?: Maybe, don't remember
96. Wanted to steal your friend's boyfriend / girlfriend?: No ways ya

ASSOCIATE WITH SOMETHING YOU WEAR...
97. White: Salwar or a t shirt
98. Black: All attires. From jeans to evening gowns. I love wearing black.
99. Red: An evening gown maybe
100. Pink: A night suit or a salwar maybe. I don't wear pink very often

So there go my answers. Enjoyed answering them :) I would love to pass on the tag to my fellow bloggers, siddhanth, pritesh, pratap, neha ansal, neha silam, anand, quirky mon, chinmaya, pri, dhanni and the followers of my blog. Waiting to read your answers guys :)

Chandana C. Shekar

Heights of co-incidence!!!

How much can be a co-incidence? Two girls having the same kind of dress? Both of them being friends? Both of them being colleagues, working within the same 4 walls, almost always next to each other? Both of them wearing those dresses the same day? Well,Trust me, I'd say- ALL OF IT!!

One extremely funny thing happened today. I and my co-intern happened to wear the same coloured attire with the same kind of prints too!! Both of us wore white and blue with circular prints. The shade of blue was same too. It was an extreme co-incidence. I didn't even know that she had a dress of this sort ( being with her since 4.5 years, I actually am kind of aware of the dresses she owns). Maybe it would go unnoticed. But since we both are in the same unit and always working together, every other person couldn't help but notice it.From nurses, to our friends, to PGs to Unit chief too!! And the comments we got, were really weird.Here are a few:

-->"Are you twins?" ( that was really weird. Our clothes might have been twins. but how can we be?)
--> One of the my friend pointed at my co-intern and said, "Look look, Chandana's there!!" Duh!!
--> "Did you both get these dresses in any 'buy one,get one free' offer?" Oh gosh!
--> "Are you celebrating any white and blue day?"
--> "Has any uniform system been started in your unit?" Yeah dude, thats the only thing pending now!!

Others were decent enough to ask, "hey, how come same kind of dresses?"Thank god!! But the above mentioned comments-@$*^&@*&"~. We felt like going home and changing! But unfortunately, sugery postings doesn't give you so much time. But the next time I'd wear this dress to hospital, I'd surely call my colleague and confirm that she isn't wearing the same dress that day. We took a snap of ours too to remember this 'once in a lifetime' incident. I showed the snap to my mom, and she started laughing too!!Heights ya!!

Chandana C. Shekar

Hoping...praying...

I'm almost all set for Shruthi's wedding. The not-done part is getting done too. Being the bride's friends, all of us are really excited for this wedding. I'm just hoping and praying and wishing and everything, that I GET LEAVE FROM HOSPITAL!!! Hope it happens. Very badly hope so..Coz I'm asking leave on those days which are supposed to be the busy days in the hospital!! But what can I do?!? Her wedding is scheduled to be so.! Well, hoping for the best!!I very badly want to attend the wedding.

Chandana C. Shekar

Im back with poetry :)

How would you feel If you sang at your favourite club after one whole year?
How would you feel if you ate your favourite dish after one whole year?
How would you feel if you sat by the riverside with your best friend after one whole year?
How would you feel if you played your favourite game after one whole year?

Great! Awesome! Amazing! Fantastic! Whoo! Yippee! or maybe even, 'Words can't explain'... Right?

Yeah right, that's how I'm feeling right now. I'm back to something!!. Something I really loved doing. Something that always gave me bliss. Something that always brought a smile on my face. Something which people associated me with. Something for which I was appreciated. Something for which, my family felt proud of me. Something for which, my friends gifted me presents. Something for which, the guy I had a crush on, liked me too. Something which allowed me to play my favourite game-to play with words. Something which made me feel the world is indeed beautiful. Something which made me feel that I'm quite the romantic. Something, which somehow, was a reason for me to be glad. Something, which I thought, I would never live without. Yeah, I'm back to POETRY!!

Hadn't written since almost a year, except for two poems. If I think back in retro, I actually don't find a reason as to why I stopped writing. But when I realised that I have stopped writing poetry and I ought to start writing, there I had- 'a block'!! I don't know how and why, but I really couldn't write for a long time. Thoughts and words never got the flow and I didn't want to force them too. But now, fortunately, I'm back with poems. I wrote one today. And the best part was, it just crossed my mind within no time and there, I had it on paper :). Though I feel I'm amateur yet, and I still have the habit of being lazy enough not to edit and refine my poems, I'm really glad that I started writing poems again :) I true and pure heartedly implore to God, that I don't ever get to stop writing poems, ever in my life . :)

Chandana C. Shekar

May I consult Dr.Chandana please?

It's a saturday morning and as usual, I was expecting a busy day and night at work. I go to the OPD at past 10 , after finishing the dressings in the ward and there is an OPD card lying on the table unattended. I ask the PG if he is done with that patient and if I can dispense the card, and he says , "That patient wants to consult you itseems". There's no doubt about my reaction. You can guess it right?I know he is just kidding. I ask him to stop it and he says the same thing again. 'What the hell ya, how can somebody fool around like this early in the morning when there is a busy day ahead yet?' is what goes on in my mind. I ask him for the last time to stop acting weird and there he goes, "The patient said that she wants to consult Dr.Chandana itseems". Ah!! Now I know for sure. This guy is nuts. He is having fun at my cost.

Then, for some reason, I turn around and see, and I find that, THE PATIENT IS ACTUALLY WAITING FOR ME!!!. I was shocked, speechless, wondering what my staff would think about it ,and happy too.

Now the explaination for her waiting for me goes like this. This particular lady had come to the OPD last week too and wanted a female doctor to examine her and she was pretty scared about something regarding her health. As I was the only female doctor around, I did examine her, but rest of the diagnosis and treatment part was done by my senior. That time, it has so happened that she has got to know my name from my name-plate. Now,this week, when she has come for follow-up, she is asking for Dr. Chandana!!!

Whoo!!! Felt good in one way. It's a completely different story that it'll be my seniors who will be doing the needful for her and I'm here just as an intern, still in my learning process. But when most of the patients address you as 'Sister'(Patients think any young girl in an apron is a nurse!!! weird!!!) and you keep snapping back at them saying 'I'm a doctor', if a patient asks for you and waits for you, it is but obvious that you will feel good right? When at times, you don't even get the respect that the para-medical staff get, by you very own staff, if somebody is respecting you as a 'Dr' , you will feel glad right? When most of the time you are doing clerical work at the hospital, if a patient actually wants you to treat her, you will feel great right? :) Nice :) :)

Chandana C. Shekar

Honest Scrap Award

Unfortunately, is such a bad word to start a post with. But then yeah, 'Unfortunatley',Had forgot to mention one thing. My blog has been awared "Honest Scrap" award by Brocasarea way long back in April 2009. Thanks so much bro :) And really sorry that I'm acknowledging it late on my blog :( It somehow missed my mind that I had to do it. I would like to pass it on to my fellow bloggers- Pritesh, Dhanashree, Nazish and Siddanth. Keep it up guys :)

Chandana C. Shekar

Surgery, so far... so good :)

I report to Surgery Postings on saturday morning at 9. And I'm on continous duty till monday evening 5, making it a good whole 56 hour shift!!! Unfortunately, I'm supposed to be the only intern as my co-intern is at rotation postings at the Paediatric Surgery department for ten days. And unfortunately again, the junior PG is on leave. And more unfortunately, there are a lot of admissions for those two days. :(

Coming from minor postings and having so much work to do and not knowing how things are to be done felt a huge transition. Days passed and I got used to it. There was more work compared to other unit interns, but then, it all boils down to one thing. If the people who your working with are cool enough, everything goes on smoothly. So did it happen. The profs in my unit weren't 'very' cranky and P.G.s in the unit were really cool. I used to get my share of work to do, no running away from it. But I used to get enough time to do it too. No unreasonable time limit and stuff. Do your work, and your fine. Got to assist surgeries. Learnt a few things too. Felt for sometime atleast that I'm actually a medical intern and not just somebody doing some clerical work, filling forms etc.

There are a few things I have realised in the past few days during my postings here, and few are from some people around:
1. Always have Confidence, come what may. That's going to be your ultimate lifeline.
2. Everybody has workload. Learn to get on with it. Never crib about it for the whole day. Get done with it and then enjoy the remaining part of the day.Be bindaas.
3. Your here for something, keep that in mind first. First things first.
4. Don't believe in somebody else's opinion about people. Make your own. It differs big time. Trust me on that!! Opinions are very very subjective.

Well, a month more to go and I foresee a few changes too. Lets see how it goes :)

Chandana C. Shekar

ENT and Ophthal

Done with ENT and Ophthal postings. One cool month. Over and out with it.:( Life was 'cool' these days. No post opd and post op duties.No staff shouting at you- Thats because the PGs there form your armour and they get all the shoutings and yellings and screamings and 'gaalis' too. And that makes you so very protected :) Amazing PGs ya. Really, very friendly.Schedule there for interns was so very simple.Roam around, chit chat, sit in OPD,do clerical work(lolz)...Life just passes.. Wow!!! Now that I'm into surgery postings, I miss those days. I really do. Minors were fun.I feel like I'm doing the whole last month's work in 3 or 4 days now.

And hey, I did a Tonsillectomy during Ent postings :). Interns doing it is a rarity in our college. Very rare sure. But I got to do it. Luck by chance I guess.All thanks to my Unit Chief and more than that, my PGs ya!! Ashwini and Sandhya- two amazing people I've met. 30 years from now, if somebody asks me about my ENT postings, there will be two things I'd remember. One- that I did a tonsillectomy. And two- the two PGs in the unit.I cherish that I worked with them for a while. You might find PGs who are friendly, fun to be with, not so cranky and all that. But if your searching for those who are all these and 'kiddos' at heart and mischievous and so very nice to each other, you better go to these two. You just don't feel that they are your seniors. Spending time with them is just the way, when you are with your friends. It was 'really' fun being with them :). Well, all happy things come to an end. So did my one month of ENT and Ophthal. Now into surgery, first few days were hectic. I'm the lone intern for the time being.So.. Anyways, there are a few things that are making the postings a bit comfortable. So, lets see.. Wait for further updates :)

Chandana C. Shekar

So Pink - Part 2

The title of my previous blog reminds me of an incident.A weird and funny one though :)

Once upon a time, my brother gifted me a perfume. It was called 'So Pink'. The bottle is transparent and the perfume is pink in colour. It's name 'So pink' caught my attention. Felt that some body's named it nicely.I told this to my friend 'X'. I had a huge crush on a guy that particular time and this friend 'X' knew about it. So, when I told her about this perfume's name, I absolutely have no idea what circuits got connected in her brain, that she came with the weirdest of thoughts. She said "Oh, from now on, every time you use the perfume, your guy will love it and will fall for you. That's the effect of 'pink'". I was rolling on the floor when I heard this. She too laughed and everybody there laughed too. But co-incidentally, every time since then that I have used this perfume, some nice thing has happened regarding that guy. Either I've got to see him or talk to him or something. I've tried it on experiment basis too!! And its worked!!! I know you will say its weird. I myself say its weird. But then, truth is truth. I finally end up smiling about it.Every time :)

Chandana C. Shekar

So pink!!!

I log into my blog after days together and the first thing I notice? 'Why on earth is my blog so pink?!?!?!'. It looks like some 'Legally Blonde' effect!!! But then, its something I myself have put up a few days ago na? Did my liking for it change so soon? U never know!!! Pink is not my favourite colour. I'm not that very girly-girly. But I don't mind using pink. Infact, I like a few things in pink. But still, my blog is looking extremely pinky!!! So me changing it - stat!!! :)

People who have seen the pinky template are most welcome to compare it with the new one :)

Chandana C. Shekar

Diamonds are forever

"Diamonds are forever"... "Diamonds are a girl's best friends"... So go the lyrics of two evergreen songs. And its so very true. I can swear on it. Asking why? Coz I just got 'MY FIRST DIAMONDS'. And I'm on cloud nine. Or cloud 10..11...12 rather ;)

My parents bought me a 'princess cut diamond ear studs and a pendant with chain set'. Occasion? Oh, nothing like that. Just coz I passed MBBS :) And I loved it. My family loved it. My friends loved it. The jeweller loved it too!!. Lolz. Infact,I'm just running around fishing for compliments ;).

I'm loving wearing the studs everyday. Every morning I look into the mirror, these are the first things I notice. It makes me feel so good that it instantly gets a smile on my face. Not just because they are expensive or anything. But just for the fact that they look so damn pretty and chic and elegant and classic and what not. I go speechless. Absolutely speechless. Just feel lke looking at them all the while. Feels like its making me look pretty. Feels like I'm special. The fact that its my 'first diamond' makes it feel much more special. The fact that the best member of my family(my mom) and one of my best friend were with me when I bought it, makes it feel further more special. All in all, I couldn't have asked for something better. I expected a far more smaller and simpler one than this.The one I got happened to be lottery!!. I'm so very thankful to my parents for that. I'm somebody who cherishes the smallest of small joys of life. And this one is a 'feast'. Trust me girls, to know what diamonds really do to you, you should actually own one. You will feel a princess.Nothing less than that. :) I'm as glad as I could be. No two ways about it. I'm smiling while I'm writing this too. :) :) :) :)

Chandana C. Shekar

Heights of advertising!!!

My parents are doctors and their clinics are in the same building. One Medical representative comes to my Dad's clinic and requests him to come to my Mom's cabin. My dad goes on with it, though confused. Once in my mom's cabin, the Rep takes out a box and hands over a ladies' watch to my Dad and asks him to give it to my mom. My Dad's mind starts telling him that something is wrong with this guy for sure. My Mom has the same opinion. Then he gives my Mom a men's watch and asks her to give it to my Dad. So she does and both my parents are laughing by now. And then goes the Rep in full zeal - " We are from Susten Sir and Ma'm. This is 'Sustain with Bandhan'. We are in bandhan with you, and you are in bandhan with each other"!! My Dad thinks they are funny. and my Mom thinks, whoever made this ad, is definitely an alien!!! Oh god, how can somebody come up with ideas like this?!?!?! I and my sister end up laughing and laughing and laughing :)

PS- Susten is a drug from a medical company. And drug companies give gifts to doctors usually. Titan Bandhan is the name of the watch set that they gave. Now try reading the line the Rep said, you shall get it I guess :).

Chandana C. Shekar

Happy Mother's Day :)

"God could not be everywhere, so he created mothers" - Jewish proverb.

That's my mom's fav phrase. I've seen that written on the first page of many of her books. I'm glad God created my mom. I'm more glad that he made me her daughter. What do I say about mom? What can anybody say about their moms? The only word that you can use to describe her is 'Great'. Or maybe something larger than that. She takes care of you since even before you were born. She considers you a kid even when your forty years old. For her, your nothing but her heart, walking outside her body. You mean the world to her. Your happiness is hers. She understands everything- things you say, things you don't say and even things that you yourself don't understand. Mom is one word, for an ocean of love and care. No matter how much any person in the world loves you, nobody can beat your mom on that. Can write pages about her, and yet, it will definitely remain incomplete.

All the while I wrote this, the only person I had in front of my eyes was 'My Mom'. She's somebody I look up to as an idol. Not is she just a great mom, but an amazing doctor too. I wonder from where she gets the time, energy and willpower to work the quantity she does, both at the hospital and at home, and yet, smile always. I've hardly seen my mom crib. She loves what she does. I know for a fact that she gets a lot of problems. But not once does she let anybody get a clue of it. She's one ideal example of a woman. For all that my sister and I have got from her, today I want to thank her. For all the love she's given us. For all the care we got. For all the minute to minute things she gave us, whose importance we never realised. For trusting in our stupidest thoughts and decisions. For being our watchman(watch woman) all through life. For being everything from a baby sitter to a study partner to a guide to a friend to everything. For being a partner in crime in our mischiefs(harmless ones) and a shoulder to cry on when sad. For lending a helping hand when we failed and shedding tears of joy when we succeeded. For laughing on our weirdest jokes and feeling hurt for our minor bruises. For letting us know that she is someone we can always count on, and for forgiving us when we hurt her. For having the courage to let us learn from our own mistakes at times. Oh Mom, I'd write pages and I'd never complete the things you do for us. Thanks for everything and everything and more everything. Thanks for being that amazing person you are. We feel very very proud when we say 'I'm Dr.Shylaja's daughter'. And we shall work hard to make you feel proud to be our mom. And hey, you still are very pretty :) Love you loads. :)

Had a nice Mother's day today. Wished mom, gave her a gift, got pooja done at the temple. Got her cake and partied. She treated us pizza for dinner. Had a lovely day.


p.s.: My Mom helped three more ladies become Moms today. Didn't get it? She did three caesarian sections today. So three babies delivered. So three new moms :) And hey, Mom loved the gift I gave her :) She was very happy.And I'm happy that she was happy :)




Chandana C. Shekar